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The Five of Swords

 

Today, I walk to meet The Five of Swords, a card that has escaped my attention so far, loitering in the shadows of my awareness, hanging back from the proceedings. I have been aware of its presence, and although quiet of late, I still see it, as I flick and turn the cards, shuffle and sort, deal and cut in this game of life that I play, that is both symbolic, but also real. So today, I have been gifted this card, and I will journey into the disturbing colours, and the painful argument of design that appears to me both frightening and welcoming, like a dreaded pain that you know will mark the ending of suffering. Are they drops of blood that are depicted upon the card, or are they pomegranate seeds? Do they spell death, or do they spell life, do they promise peace or war……..

I rise, then, from the old elm chair, and take the well worn path which leads from The Hallway of Beginnings, up onto the first landing, the place where I find the door that leads me into the road to forever, the places of my dreams, the journey of my soul. I walk into the potentials that are contained in the corridors of my perception, and the lands that lie in the realms that we cannot see. How far these places stretch is unknown to me, and sometimes I wish that I could stay here always,  in the land of endless vision, and one day, I know that I will stay here, I will never return, just continue on into the drifting stardust of the universe. But for now, I must travel The 5 of Swords, and gain some understanding of this sombre card, and with an exhale of breath, I open the door, and enter a landscape that has no feature; it is flat, and grey, with no mountain or hill, no tree or bird, no creation at all to rest my eyes upon.

So I stand upon the empty plain, and I wait for the vision to build, as build it must if I am to bring a story home to my waiting hands; and then I see them, travelling at speed , coming from all directions with a gravelly hissing sound, silver grey metal throwing stars fly into my vision towards me.

Large five pointed weapons of attack descend from all corners of this place, and I jump to escape from their murderous blades. Forwards and backwards I step, as I am assaulted by this terror, and I become so preoccupied with my fear of being lacerated, that I can think of nothing else. Fear engages my mind and robs me of any space in which to think, and I go into some sort of survival mode, flight or fight, although I can do neither, because I have no shield against these weapons, nor can I escape from the terror that they bring.

As this assault continues, I realise that I need to do something about the situation, and start to focus on the stars, rather than focussing on trying to escape from them. I look at them, and recognise them as a force that I can reckon with, and I gradually start to command them. More and more I focus on the stars, and smother and smoother becomes their assault. Gradually and almost imperceptibly, they begin to fall into ranks, streaming together into small streams of silver pain, and then gradually join further to form rivers. On and on they come, and as they join, they gather strength and might, an onslaught of cutting metal, slicing through the air towards me. As they gather their strength, they become easier to dodge, and I continue to command the stars until at last they have all joined forces into one massive army, approaching towards me from the North East. On and on they come in an endless march, passing in front of me and away to the south west, over my left shoulder.

As I see what I have managed to do with the fighting stars, I become aware of something begin to emerge in the land beyond, a mirage of transparent and glistering beauty is building itself out of the floor of the wasteland, a castle of shimmering light, luminescent and beautiful in contrast to the difficulty and sense of embattlement that I am standing behind.

On and on it grows, and I see a figure too, standing in front of the castle…. A woman in a long robe, made of the same shining and glowing material as the castle, figures of incandescent light that proclaim peace and calm in this place of assault.

She calls to me, the woman, her arms open and welcome, calling to me across the river of impossibility that I stand behind, and I see that in trying to avoid the threat, that I have succeeded in building a huge wall that now imprisons me, and that I can see no way of breaking through it now, that in a way I have imprisoned myself in trying to avoid the pain and difficulty that I was in. The force of the fighting stars is now immense, and although it does not directly threaten me, it prevents me from engaging with the rest of my vision.

I see that I need help in this situation, and I close my eyes and ask for my helpers to come, as they have done so before. I stand in trust and hope, and then I see them…. shy at first, but they come. Small brown and furry animals appear from the edges of my vision, creatures that by rights should be in their time of hibernation, but who come now in my hour of need, to help me to discover what it is that I need to know.

We all stand together, my helpers and I, and we face the river of the fighting stars, and I use the same technique on it that I used at the beginning, but this time I am focussing on the crystal castle ahead of me. I see the love and the warmth that emanates from beyond the fighting stars, and the castle becomes bigger, and taller and wider, and as it does so, the stars become smaller, and smaller. We all work together, focussing,  balancing, creating and uniting, until  eventually, the stars become so small, that we can gather them up, and brush them away, sweep them into nothing, cast them like dust into the wind.

My vision fills now with the uninterrupted energy of the castle, and the serene and luminous figure that lies ahead of me, and I walk into the light that beckons, the light that comforts, the light that brings peace to my mind, and hope to my heart, I walk into a land of shining and eternal light.


The Five of Swords
Venus in Aquarius
Nought to Ten degrees of Aquarius
The Lord of Defeat


My name is Joanna Grant, I am an Astrologer, Tarot Reader and Writer, who lives om the Head Shot Fadebeautiful Beara Peninsular in the South West of Ireland. My long knowledge of Astrology leads and informs my practice in offering guidance and empowerment, helping others to lead a more authentic and magical life. You can read more about me here.

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Thoth Tarot Daily: Friday 26th May 2017

Strong Gemini energy suffuses the cards again today and you are reminded of the elements of constant change that are operating in your life, together with the importance of being open to what is emerging around you. Opportunity and chance do not wait for you, the doors remain open for only a short while before closing again once the moment passed. The choice that you may have been struggling with lately now beckons your attention, for on some level you can see that a certain situation has come to an end, something you have been aware of for a while. Although this matter may well have been causing you a great deal of mental distress lately, you may have been unable to take a clear stance on the matter, because you fear the inevitable loss involved making the decision. Know today that your own personal well-being relies on your inner calm and clarity and that being true to your own self is ultimately the approach that you need to take. Clarity emerges after you make the choice.

Fortune, The Lovers, The 10 of Swords


My name is Joanna Grant, I am an Astrologer, Tarot Reader and Writer, who lives om the Head Shot Fadebeautiful Beara Peninsular in the South West of Ireland. My long knowledge of Astrology leads and informs my practice in offering guidance and empowerment, helping others to lead a more authentic and magical life. You can read more about me here.

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Thoth Tarot Daily: Thursday May 25th 2017

Today is The New Moon in Gemini giving you a renewed opportunity to make decisions that may have been troubling you for some time. The ability is with you now to look at where you are and to know what needs to be done next, to free you from feelings of indecision that you may have been facing lately. Only you have the power to make these choices, yet still hesitate, perhaps afraid of revealing yourself to the outer world in all your sensitivity and passion. The step of daring to reveal yourself in such a way offers no guarantees apart from the joy of freedom and today you may be faced with the consequences of this choice, imprisonment or freedom; whether to live an authentic life or to remain tied to where you are through the fear of indecision, and the inability to commit to a choice. Know that struggling with this situation cannot offer you any sense of release, for it is time to look beyond the details and to embrace the bigger picture, to take charge, and to paint the picture of who you really are, rather than exist in the tangle of thoughts that you may be right now. You have the power and the knowledge now, to take the step.

For more on the energy of The New Moon in Gemini today, and how it links to one of today’s cards The 8 of Swords, click HERE and for a Tarot Spread, designed specifically for issues around this Full Moon, click HERE

The Magus, The 8 of Swords, The Princess of Cups


My name is Joanna Grant, I am an Astrologer, Tarot Reader and Writer, who lives om the Head Shot Fadebeautiful Beara Peninsular in the South West of Ireland. My long knowledge of Astrology leads and informs my practice in offering guidance and empowerment, helping others to lead a more authentic and magical life. You can read more about me here.

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Thoth Tarot Daily: Wednesday 24th May 2017

Today you recognise that you are becoming more and more aware of the deeper connection that you are building with your intuition, and that things that you have known for some time are coming to pass. The effort and hard work that you have been putting into certain areas of your life may well be showing signs of reward, inasmuch as you “know” that things are working out, and this in turn is helping you to find the calm within the storm that you have sought. Be encouraged today to continue to strengthen your connection with your intuition, your inner guidance, for it can help you to connect with the path that you seek. The feeling of achievement and purpose that comes from this will help you to maintain a place of calm and purpose within the myriad of tasks and objectives that seem to constantly surround you at the moment. This in itself helps you to find the healing that you seek, and the strength to to understand the meaning in all that you do.

The Priestess, The Six of Wands, The Four of Swords.


My name is Joanna Grant, I am an Astrologer, Tarot Reader and Writer, who lives om the Head Shot Fadebeautiful Beara Peninsular in the South West of Ireland. My long knowledge of Astrology leads and informs my practice in offering guidance and empowerment, helping others to lead a more authentic and magical life. You can read more about me here.

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Thoth Tarot Daily: Tuesday May 23rd 2017

Creative enthusiasm and excitement, mixed with a slightly daredevil attitude, bubble away under the surface today and you may not be able to decide who you want to be or which way to turn! Remain calm if you can and consider what is occurring around you; Focusing on the physical aspects of what is happening will help you not to get too carried away by the potentials, whilst remaining open the new things that are arising in your life. Look within to try and understand what is happening intuitively, and this will help you to gain clarity today as your emotions are generally a clear indicator of which way to turn if you can still your mind long enough to listen to your feelings. Remain conscious of the process that is occurring within you and your need to act in the world in a way that you find emotionally fulfilling. If this requires change in your lifestyle or direction, now is the time to consider this, and the potential for healing that it may bring. Now is the time to let go of any fear that may be holding you back and to embrace division that you hold. All things are possible.


My name is Joanna Grant, I am an Astrologer, Tarot Reader and Writer, who lives om the Head Shot Fadebeautiful Beara Peninsular in the South West of Ireland. My long knowledge of Astrology leads and informs my practice in offering guidance and empowerment, helping others to lead a more authentic and magical life. You can read more about me here.

Tarot Spread for The New Moon in Gemini: May 25th 2017

For those of you who like to do a Tarot Spread in order to set intentions for The New Moon, here is one inspired by the astrology of the moment.

The New Moon this month, taps into a tight Pluto Venus Square, in the rather unforgiving cardinal signs of Capricorn and Aries. Decisions regarding relationships may well be in the air, and if there has been conflict in regards to control issues, jealousy, freedom and personal independence, now is the time when things could flare up. Suddenly overwhelmed by the suffocating feelings that may have been limiting your personal independence, it may be inevitable that it becomes just the right time to finally make that break for freedom.

What is my Seed
Sun conjunct Moon at 4 degrees 46 of Gemini

What old structures do I need to let go of? 
New Moon Sesquiquadrate Pluto at 19 degrees of Capricorn 

Where do I need to move out and express myself independently?
New Moon Semisquare Venus at 19 degrees of Aries. 

What energy to I need to employ to find my freedom? 
First Decan of Gemini: The 8 of Swords

What outcome will I achieve by December 
2017- Full Moon in Gemini at 11 degrees 40.

Here is the chart of the moment.

New Moon in Gemini May 25th 2017

Read more about the manifestation of this New Moon here: New Moon in Gemini


My name is Joanna Grant, I am an Astrologer, Tarot Reader and Writer, who lives om the Head Shot Fadebeautiful Beara Peninsular in the South West of Ireland. My long knowledge of Astrology leads and informs my practice in offering guidance and empowerment, helping others to lead a more authentic and magical life. You can read more about me here.

New Moon in Gemini: Thursday May 25th 2017: The Courage To Be Yourself.

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do.” –

Mark Twain

The New Moon in Gemini on the Thursday the 25th May, taps into a tight Venus Pluto square, giving a decidedly intense flavor to this particular New Moon.

Decisions regarding relationships may well be in the air, and if there has been conflict in regards to control issues, jealousy, freedom and personal independence, now is the time when things could flare up. Suddenly overwhelmed by the suffocating feelings that may have been limiting your personal independence, it may be inevitable that it becomes just the right time to finally make that break for freedom.

One might ask though, how such a situation arose in the first place. Venus and Pluto have been involved in an intimate, daring and perhaps even rather aggressive dance since their meeting in the skies on November the 25th 2016. Through the various retrograde processes that these two planets have been involved in since then, it has taken them this long to really come to any clear perspective about their relationship, and where it is heading to next. The challenges of this particular New Moon, flood the consciousness with a huge variety of options, the potentials on offer seem endless, and if you are currently in a relationship which limits you or cramps your style in any way, then it is likely that you will at least be considering if you want out. If, on the other hand, you have the freedom to express your individuality, and take the time and space that you need in order to go it alone when you need to, then all will be well, (until the 3rd week of August, at least!)

Thoth 8 of Swords
The 8 of Swords

The card that governs this particular New Moon is this one, The Eight of Swords, suggesting that it can feel impossible trying to make a decision with all that you are faced with at the moment, although fighting against the issue is likely only to make matters worse. In some ways you may feel that you are “damned if you do, and damned if you don’t”, and for the sake of a peaceful life, you may decide that you are better off where you are, but will you be able to cope with the mental stress that this situation subjects you to? Look carefully at all that you are holding on to, and try to see what is actually relevant; what is weighing you down? Where are you actually heading? What things of value must you take with you? If you would like more insight into the dynamic contained within this card, click on the link beneath it to access what I found when I journeyed into it.

This New Moon, take the time to recognize all that you are, rather than all that you have. Consider the options of travelling light, the adventures that beckon you, and the joy of independence, and how far this sense of power can help you to break the bonds that are keeping you from the freedom of your own creative strength.

For a Tarot spread that harnesses the Astrology of the Moment, please click HERE

New Moon in Gemini May 25th 2017


My name is Joanna Grant, I am an Astrologer, Tarot Reader and Writer, who lives om the Head Shot Fadebeautiful Beara Peninsular in the South West of Ireland. My long knowledge of Astrology leads and informs my practice in offering guidance and empowerment, helping others to lead a more authentic and magical life. You can read more about me here.

Thoth Tarot Daily: Monday May 22nd 2017

The forces of change are sitting in the background today alerting you to the possibilities ahead, and on some level you are making preparations for a new phase in life that will offer you deeper emotional and spiritual connections than that which you have known already. This change has been in the process of developing for a long time but in that time you have been preparing for what lies ahead; the transformations that you have been experiencing have been necessary, for in order to complete this journey much has had to change for you, and much may have been lost. In this process of loss and adaptation to new circumstances, a new strengths has been found and it will be this flexibility and tenacity in the face of difficulty that will drive you forward into the new period of love balance and harmony that waits for you.


My name is Joanna Grant, I am an Astrologer, Tarot Reader and Writer, who lives om the Head Shot Fadebeautiful Beara Peninsular in the South West of Ireland. My long knowledge of Astrology leads and informs my practice in offering guidance and empowerment, helping others to lead a more authentic and magical life. You can read more about me here.

 

The Nine of Wands

I choose The Nine of Wands today, the card that speaks of the powerful transformations that are possible in the depths of endless night, the illumination that can be found in the darkest pit of the soul, for I have known this place now, I have looked into the face of the darkness that lies there, I have discovered within it the strength that shows itself when all else has failed.

It is a strength born of the stuff of nightmares, the light that flares into life when all other lights have been extinguished. Despair and death have surrounded me, have been my daily companions, as I have lived  with torment in my heart, for day upon endless day…the incessant wraiths whispering in my ears, leading me into stranger places, dragging me through visions of unholy grace until I became a shadow of myself. Eventually I became a stranger in what had been a familiar land, where I lost forever my remembrance of whom I had become, lost to eternity the person I had grown to be, lost her into the shattered storms of my mind, lost her into the broken vault that had been my heart.

And so I sit in the Hallway of Beginnings, sentinel, waiting for the power to build, and today it is strong, and it comes quickly, for there has been a change, a revelation in the worlds that I explore. I rise with a power and a belief and a knowledge that sweeps my uncertainty away into the corners of the long hallway, to sit undisturbed with the modicum of dust that gathers there; I rise with the knowledge that I go forth with light and with life and with a vision that carries me with clarity into the realms that I would know.

I walk quickly up the wooden stairs, open the door, and walk through the dull red darkness that proclaims the portal of The Nine of Wands, and I am immediately assaulted by the vision of what I see there, for I see that I have arrived into the deep mud filled trenches of World War 1, and I am knee deep in freezing stagnant stinking water. Bodies of dead men are piled up at the sides of the trenches, where efforts have been made to keep them away from the water, and they lie there, empty eyed and despairing, lost to life, their soft warm bodies annihilated by cold lust, the greed that drives war. How futile the loss of life, the pain of love lost, every single one an innocent child, someone’s child, a child of hopes and dreams, of summer days and fields of grass, now lying broken and lifeless, rotting in the mud.

I walk in shock, through this god forsaken place, wading through the stench of death that fills every cell of my body, wondering when it will end, wondering if there is a way out, or if this is it, the horror of death and destruction stretching onwards into eternity. I turn a corner in the line, and top of a stack of bodies, burrowing into the drier mud, at the top of the wall, I see a small brown harvest mouse.  I approach this single spark of soft breathing living life, a solitary beacon in this world that is saturated with desperation and fear; I approach her and ask her what she represents.

She tells me that even a mouse can survive in places like this, and that I, like her, am surrounded by forces over which I have no control, forces that are greater than me, and which wage their own wars. She then tells me that in fighting my own battles, I am waging war against a history that has been passed down to me from my ancestors, and that I fight not only for myself, but for my children and my grandchildren; I fight to break the patterns of centuries, so that they will not have to.

I see here, a continuation of what happened in the 7 of Wands, the issue of the breaking of patterns, but see that I have now moved into the realm of ideals, of vision, of law, of the dictates of my clan and my creed.  She tells me then that the harvest will come, even though it may seem as if it never will.

I thank the small humble mouse, she has provided me much inspired wisdom, and I walk on towards a man that is still alive, that I see beckoning to me across the stinking grey mud. He lays there, a shadow of life remaining to him, but yet seeking a connection, his eyes burning with intensity in the ravaged torn hopelessness of his face. I kneel in the filthy swamp, shuddering as the ice cold water seeps up to my waist, creeping like the hands of death into the warmth of my own life blood.

The man tells me his name, and he tells me of love, the love of his heart, the love of his mother, the love of his comrades, and I see in him, that although his body has died, for it is so damaged and broken that there could be no life left within it, that his heart is full of love, that the love of his heart has erased the pain that he feels and he drifts aloft upon a wave of love that is carrying him into the light, a connection to spirit that is supporting him through the trauma and suffering of his body,, and on into the world of peace and forgiveness that he is bound for.

As the man closes his eyes for the last time, I see a ghost of a smile pass across his face, and I let go of the misery and pain, the heartache, the torture and the suffering that I am mired in. I walk free of the darkness and the mud, the fetid water and the rotting bodies, the stench of war, the blood and the pointless loss of life….. I walk free of this place of death…. I walk into the light.

I see The Sun & The Moon together in the sky, The Sun to my left, and The Moon to my right. I walk, with others, who are appearing in their tens, their hundreds, and eventually their thousands, I walk with them through a huge gateway, the gateway of The Sun & The Moon. We walk together in a valley of sheltered and golden beauty, the place that we can all remember, the place that we can call home., and that as we walk, we are joined, united within ourselves, for we have survived this place, we have found our contentment, we are strong, for we have looked upon the face of the divine.

I carry on walking into the light, and the features of the landscape fade away into dazzling white until I am blinded by the intensity of it: and when I open my eyes again, I am sitting, as I was before, but different, in the peace and calm of The Hallway of Beginnings.


The 9 of Wands
Strength
Moon in Sagittarius
10 to 20 degrees of Sagittarius
The Lord of Great Strength


My name is Joanna Grant, I am an Astrologer, Tarot Reader and Writer, who lives om the Head Shot Fadebeautiful Beara Peninsular in the South West of Ireland. My long knowledge of Astrology leads and informs my practice in offering guidance and empowerment, helping others to lead a more authentic and magical life. You can read more about me here.

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